Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Jesus, you call us to complete honesty with you. When I know something like that about you it is impossible to do anything else. I am tired and overwhelmed. I feel so incredibly blessed with everything you have given me. You are such an amazing and generous God. Every good and perfect gift comes from above. You have given me a wonderful husband that is striving to be more like you and lead our family well. I have an amazing piece of your church, these amazing friends who refuse to let us settle with our fleshy life. We are called out in an amazing graceful way to become more like you all the time. We have family and friends who support us and love is well. You have blessed us with this pregnancy. Wow. I feel like if anything else it is making me trust you more and more. I am not in charge of this tiny life inside of me. You are and you are THE sovereign God of the universe. I don't need to worry about every tiny little detail or about what mistake I could potentially make. I love that I can rest in that and I pray that I can through all of this no matter what happens. You also provide for all of our physical needs. You provide a place to live, food to eat, and you have provided a car for me that is safe and reliable. The thing about all of that is that I've seen you provide good gifts. You keep me safe with all of those things. You love me so much more than I understand and I pray that I get a deeper understanding as each day passes. Even through all of these life altering amazing blessings- I still am having a hard time being joyful. Knowing you have my life planned above what I could even imagine. These days of pregnancy make me so exhausted that praying and reading my bible is really hard. Lord give me strength to spend time with you. Not because I'm being religious but because I know that that is how our relationship is being strengthened. Lord help me in this time. Sustain me. Amen

1 comment:

  1. beautiful post, Megan. Praying for you, my friend.